wats the deal

like lately things been kinda off
relationships are so damn confusing i dont even kno what to do. like i want to stay and make things work but then i feel like im to good to be put through the things he decides to do.
some girls just need to stick to their own lives and not be side line hoes hahahaha
wow but yeh me and him talked last night and we came to so compromises i guess imma just have to see whats up. but my happiness should come before anyone else's when it comes to me.
but things are not all that bad like i have been talkin to my cousins from pittsburgh i found the lil bitch bre on facebook after askin everyone where she was when i went out there. i havent seen her in like years : (.....my cosuins are like grown i guess if i lived in pittsburgh i may be right along with them but i mean they aint dumb so it not like dumb decisions jus a lil early on things i guess..... i want a new car like i keep thinking about it and its bothering me i really wish no one broke into my car and stole my shit and now fuckin ppl keep scrapping the damn paint off my bumper....do they kno how to drive damn , well im still young so i guess i can fix my honda back up and get a new car in a year or so but i hate staring at it when it looks like this it use to be my baby. but other than that i think i have two test today and college is gettn on my damn nerves i hate going everyday... well i hoping my relationship changes and fast cuz its tiring goin over and over again 10 months damn who thought i would last this long imma player but i guess i gave the card back to the game heheheh